[Today’s guest post is from Kathryn Sowinski, whose prayer for a patient on the table led to her own spiritual healing.]
“Don’t push it too fast…..it will kill him; but not too slowly either…..he needs the medicine, or he will die.”
I could hear the anxiety in her voice as she calmly but urgently explained what needed to be done. Typically, medicines in a situation like this would be steadily administered by an IV pump, but we were out of pumps, and this was a life or death situation.
I had just started the IV on the patient, and was handed the syringe. “Dear God, please don’t let this man die right now,” I fearfully and humbly prayed.
I cautiously began pushing the syringe, keenly aware of every breath he was taking, every line coming across the heart monitor; constantly praying, and the Lord answered my prayers with His Holy Word.
Life and death are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruit. (Proverbs 18:21.)
Not exactly the answer I had anticipated.
I was witnessing the delicate balance of life and death; I was so intentional with every move I made, every glance, every push of the syringe, observing the direct impact of the medicine on this man’s heart rate and rhythm.
I was far more reckless with my words. I was known for quick wit and sarcasm which often had a caustic bite. Feeling somewhat rebuked, I immediately replied in prayer “Yes Lord, I hear You, I will speak more nicely…..please help this man! I can’t stand here all night with him; what if we run out of this medicine?” Anxiety began to creep in as I noticed that half of the syringe was gone. He again answered with His Word.
A good man produces good out of the storeroom of his heart. An evil man produces evil out of the evil storeroom, for his mouth speaks from the overflow of the heart. (Luke 6:45.)
“Cath lab is ready! Let’s go!” We rushed the man into the cath lab where they were able to fix the cause of his problem, his heart. Although the medicine was managing my patient’s symptoms, the cure was not the medicine, he needed a physician to fix his heart. Similarly, I need the Great Physician to fix my broken, sin stained heart.
Only He can give my heart the healing and repair it desperately needs.
Katherine Sowinski describes herself as a flawed follower of Jesus, aunt, sister, daughter, nurse, friend, encourager, dog person, and agent of grace in the war against shame as the Spirit leads. You can connect with Kathryn on Facebook (I do!) for more insights and interactions.